Tuesday, November 22, 2011
10:52 PM
Lol I'm actually embarrassed to say this, but yes I'm extremely sensitive about my size and weight now, if that isn't obvious enough.
I will cast taser glares on you even at the very slightest hint if you are gonna say that dreaded word:
FAT.
Yeah I'm no longer XS, I outgrew ALL my XS clothes, so is that a crime? Apparently my parents can't get used to my current size and the word that's hanging on their mouths all the time....... urgh that dreadful word. I hate it so much.
I used to be so skinny
(despite my enormous appetite) that people would think that I was anorexic. And now that I'm no longer anorexic-looking, people are starting to find fault with my current size.
HELLO? I grew from a size 0 to a size 2, don't you dare call me fat.
All the tension eventually got blasted that very night, when I flared up on Twitter. Yes I am still VERY sensitive about my weight so keep quiet about it. I'm still considered "skinny" by most standards but honestly? Gaining 9kg has taken a toll on my self-esteem. Its no joke putting on 7kg in a month, before subsequently gaining the other 2.
I got so stressed that very night after I flared up that I had to leave the house in tears. In case you're curious about my current weight, I'm somewhere around a 45. I'm not giving you the exact figure, but its somewhere there. So you deduct 9kg off, and tell me how underweight I was last time. And I can still be called fat now. Ha.
In any case........ life has still been very busy.
I hit the club
(I meant the wine bar. I refused to step inside the club cos I. Don't. Club.) last Saturday after a strict 2-3 months period of "no alcohol". Had like 2 or 3 shots there before I stopped because again, my stomach was burning. I drank Pepsi the very next day by the way, just two sips, before my stomach acted up once again. I think I'm in deep trouble.... heh. I need a doctorrrrr~ Rihanna???
And to the one who was there for me when my relationship failed and everything went wrong... I'm still incredibly grateful to you for what you did for me back then. No words can ever express how grateful I actually am, for forking out your time, money, bed and goodness knows what else. You were there when I was at the lowest point in my life, so low that I was avoiding even my own friends. But somehow you managed to get me to your place that night.
On your new-found status, I'm pretty sure you've picked yourself up pretty well. You've always been so tough. But then just in case looks may deceive (because most of my own friends thought I was tough as well, but turns out..... hahaha), I'll be here just like how you were there for me. It may not be a lot, but I hope a good hearty meal would give you back the 3kg you've lost! XD (I didn't put your name here cos not many people like having their new-found status announced *cough*)
And I purposely changed the colour of these paragraphs in case my entry didn't catch your attention because I know you tend to drift when you see too many words and no pics!
Miss Lai is coming back in 4 days time and I honestly cannot wait. <3 <3 <3 I miss her soooooo much these past months, and living without a smartphone
(sigh ALL the teenagers my age own a smartphone except for me *sobs*) means I don't have whatsapp to talk to her with!
But I'm getting my new phone/tablet this weekend....... I CAN'T WAIT. Its even better than all the iPhones, suck on that Apple supporters!!!
(okay la fine I was just jealous cos while everyone was on the Apple craze I had a freaking China phone but all that's gonna change now blehhh)
Goodnight, till we meet again. XD
xoxo,
VAL
