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My granny breathed her last a couple of weeks ago. She was so, so beautiful in her coffin, looking like she just fell asleep.

I was sorry I failed to send her off on her last journey because I was sleeping... I tried forcing my eyes open, telling myself that it wouldn't hurt to stay awake for a couple more hours but I just couldn't. I had been awake throughout the entire funeral except for the last day when we were supposed to send her off. I'm still feeling very, very guilty over it. *winces*

Thanks to all who came down cos I didn't specifically tell anyone to.... I was in the "hermit crab" stage that time, and I didn't even tell Bea. I think she was mugging for her A levels? Thanks to best friend who stayed till the wee hours of the morning, love you!!!

Been locking myself at home pretty regularly for the first few weeks (err other than driving out for movies/supper at night), its almost as if I've turned into a hermit crab. I didn't feel like going out at all. I had frequent migraine attacks during that period of time and it made me immobile. Bwaaaaah.

But for the past and this week, I've been heading out every single day (for tuition, shopping and others haha) and its starting to wear me down. I cannot wait to fly to Perth to enjoy life away from the city.... I wanna sit on the rocks by the seaside for hours on end, listening to the sound of waves/seagulls/my own thoughts. I wanna eat fresh seafood in huge portions, I wanna drive recklessly. Why the hell do I always spend whatever I have....... sigh. *hates self instantly* I don't want a holiday to a city location with shopping; I want a getaway, there is a frigging difference!!!!!!!! (actually for a getaway, anywhere will suffice, but somewhere with cool weather and fresh seafood and beautiful seaside sceneries like Perth is a bonus heh) 

D has been driving the both of us out pretty frequently lately since I'm no longer "booked" on consecutive Fri/Sat nights every week to drink. I cannot even stand the smell of alcohol now, it makes my stomach quench. And I don't doubt for a second that my gastric is gonna act up if I start it all over again.

In any case, D drove us to Marina Barrage on a Friday night (where we saw a shooting star!!!!! OMG!!!!! It was the most beautiful thing everrrrrrrrrrrr) and *coughs* I drove his car for awhile. Converting from manual to auto was pretty simple, but perhaps I should brake faster (and less harder) the next time cos I almost hit a BMW and D's heart was in his mouth. His car was like, an INCH away from the parked BMW after I was done hehehe. :X

Cheryl came over to my place yesterday and we spent a good...... 6-7 hours packing my clothes! I can never thank her enough. You know how it feels like to have tons of clothes, both new and worn, and yet you can never wear them so you resort to wearing the same ones over and over again cos you're too lazy to dig them out from the luggage and Ikea boxes your frustrated parents have placed in the storeroom and around the house?! I have a loooooooot of clothes but I keep buying non-stop cos of the way they are packed at home. Its like a mind game with myself..... out of sight, out of mind. Hahaha. But thank you for spending so much time and energy for helping me out!!!!!

My last tuition session with my favourite student was last Friday evening. I loveeeeee that little boy and his sweet mom to death. His mom treats me as part of the family, and she told me that we must definitely keep in contact even though tuition has to stop. She gave me a beautiful necklace (my mom says it might cost a bomb, so she's gonna check out the price at the shop lol) before we parted. I miss the both of them very much, and I have never regretted spending 2 hours travelling to and fro for each tuition session. Pity it had to stop, since he was studying in an international school and his time table is fully packed day to day. And he's only 8?! Sigh society is so so so so fast-paced now......

On a random note I went back to play my sims social earlier on and I lagged for a full 10 mins cos I spam-clicked "Accept" to all 60+ requests. Really crazy ahaha.

Good night..... or morning, whichever pleases you. I'm hoping to have pics up soon hehehe cos everytime I open my folder, despite it being fullllllllllllllllll with pics yet to be uploaded, I feel.... "why am I doing this again???" and close the folder. :D I'm sorry if you're the type who needs pics to feel entertained!

P.S: Its 4.30am as I'm typing this final paragraph, and a loud clap of thunder and a bright flash of lightning have just startled me..... and my dog. My initial reaction was to hide my face in a pillow and regret being up so late since I could have been under my covers, whereas my dog's reaction is to hide below a chair. Poor Kiki. But she didn't allow me to cuddle her for comfort. Sigh, poor me.

xoxo,
VAL