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Been so busy I hardly ever think about blogging these days.

For starters, I think I forgot to mention I had eyebrow embroidery done quite some time back, but anywayyyyy I finally did it!!!!!! I've been going out without makeup more often than I can even remember.

And moving on, I think I'm supposed to visit a doctor if I want to live longer.. lol. I've never had any gastric problems before in my life. Not even once. But about two to three months ago I sorta realised that I have severe gastric pains when I drink. I thought it was cos I didn't have enough for dinner and all, so the alcohol started attacking my stomach.

To my horror, the pain got worse and worse each time I went drinking (which means my condition sorta deteriorated weekly since I drink once to thrice weekly). There was once I headed to bed feeling all tipsy, and I woke up with the worst gastric pain ever the next morning. It got SO bad, I couldn't move or walk, all I could do was to cry in pain. On top of that, I was hungover so I kept feeling like I needed to puke as well.

I had to BEG my eldest brother (there was nobody else in the house, sigh) to cook something for me cos I could feel the gastric messing up my body real bad. I couldn't cook for myself cos I couldn't even walk!!! But that ingrate !@#$%^&*() just left the house without even telling me. I cried while hobbling to the kitchen to cook a little something (I barely knew what I was doing, I was in so much pain -_-), ate like two mouthfuls before crying myself to sleep again.

(Anan, if you're reading this....... yes that was why I called you that time. I was too helpless at that point in time already. :X)

The pain was THAT bad. So I got a little fearful of alcohol and stopped completely for three weeks. No partying, just overnight mahjong sessions.

But I started again recently, on Friday and Saturday. I didn't get to drink a lot either. Because after a smaaaaaaall glass of Martell + green tea, I could feel the pain in my gastric BURNING. It didn't help that I had tons of rice for my dinner before that, so its pretty obvious that there's something wrong with my body already!

A talk to an older friend of mine proved helpful. He's been drinking for two decades or something, I reckon.... and he once had a hole in his stomach from too much alcohol, and warned me that I was showing signs of that too.

My point is.............

I've stopped. For good. Completely.

I went back to drinking last week cos of certain issues that I cannot bring up here. But as I was sitting right there, I was asking myself these very same questions.

"Why the hell am I in such an undesirable place?! I'd rather a decent bar anytime, even if I have to pay $xxxxx for a cup or two."

"Eeeew what is wrong with Martell + green tea?! The taste is SO revolting. Why the hell have I been drinking this over and over again for the past two years?!?!"

Somehow, I was enlightened...... and I think my friends would be very delighted to know that. Call me out for healthy activities on weekends, I'm free now!!!! No longer being tied down to alcohol.

Also, been spending quite a bit of time on this new "goal" of mine. Pretty excited about it!! I have about two helpers (and good friends) with me on this, everything's looking good. Can't wait to be more or less "settled down" after this short period, then I'll engage Gen's help!! (I hope you are reading this!!!! Don't turn me down when that time comes. XD)

xoxo,
VAL