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Errrrr so.... since I'm (finally) free tonight, I thought I'd login blogger for a moment and jeeeezzz!!!!! GUESS WHAT? I forgot my password.

I know right?! So incredibly smart of me. LOL. I had to do that forget password thang once again.

Got jolted to blog cos my friends have been complaining. I don't see many of them often due to our busy schedules and all, so they'd come reading my blog to catch little snippets of my life. And then they'd text me "BUT YOU DON'T UPDATE ANYMORE!!!!!" hahaha I'm sorry!!!

I've been so busy that I barely had time for myself, BUT NOW I DOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Yeah, sort of. Been keeping myself away from alcohol the past two weeks, seems to be pretty much working despite the many temptations each time my phone starts ringing.....

So I've been keeping myself busy through these nights. By playing mahjong!

Woke up late today, and kept myself busy with a new book from Sophie Kinsella which I've yet to even finish reading, along with a tub of B&J beside me. Kept my phone far, far away from me..... and only bothered retrieving my phone to take a look when I feel satisfied with the number of hours spent on me-time, like reading my book or watching the telly.

Sure enough, the minute I'm near my phone, I'M NEVER FREE. But I'm loving every minute of this new busy life I'm leading.

Then when I come online, I need my me-time online as well. I WILL PERSONALLY IGNORE EACH AND EVERY FRIEND WHO COMES BUGGING ME FOR PICTURES!! I'm sorry I've been holding onto them for so long, but I hardly get to touch the computer for a long period of time these days, so when I do, I'm BUSY online, okay?!

I just wanna check my mails, do some online shopping, read the latest gossip, blahblah. If you let me finish doing all the above in PEACE, I promise you will get your pics before you can even finish screaming my name. Which has three syllables, by the way. (I owe THOUSANDS of pics hahaha I'm so sorryyyyyyyyy they just keep stacking up!)

In an nutshell:

- its been a week since the start of my hols
- I PASSED MY BTT!!!!! (I was determined to pass it cos I wanted to thrash the 4 guys whom I was taking the test with. GIRL POWER!)
- met up with Bea on Thurs for lunch and a short catch up (the last time I met her was during my birthday?!!??!?!?!)
- met up with Cheryl and Sijia on Sat night for supper and a short catch up
- sometimes I get so busy I forget all the past events hahaha cos life just goes on

So..... apparently............ my mom talks to Bea. Quite a lot. About me.
And............ my bro talks to Cheryl. Quiet a lot. About me.

WHY?!?!?!?!?!??!!

But then again I'm not really bothered cos these are all people I know. I only hate it when people whom I'm merely acquainted with/don't even know personally talk behind my back.

I still miss Miss Lai... but yippee she's gonna be back in.. 8-10 weeks? I'm counting down! And her neighbour in her hostel happens to be my senior in secondary school.... so obviously I heard more stories about what the choir members used to talk about behind my back....

And for a short moment, I was angry. Really angry. Angry enough to flame each and every single one of them, because...

Hey, I have never spoken a WORD to you girls before in school. Yet you come talking about me with baseless and misleading facts. So after I flare up, IT BECOMES MY FAULT? Then this little circle comes repeating...

But you know what? I didn't. Because I know I'm clearly leading a better life. *shrugs* If they wanna act like bitches, let them be. I don't wanna stoop to their level.

I haven't even cleared things with Lynn up since that 2009 incident. She was rash enough to delete me off FB/MSN and whatever social networking platforms we had that time. I let her be, because at that VERY exact moment when she was trying to make peace with me on MSN, you know what she was doing?

..... yeah, bitching about me behind my back. Saying stuff like "She thinks she's some big shot, don't wanna reply. Bitch about me then purposely don't wanna reply me. Blahblahblah." or something along that line anyway. 2 years later, now you know why I refused to reply you?

You lost at your own game. You ASSUMED I was flaming you, so may I know what that is, if it isn't a guilty conscience that's prickling you?

Hello, you aren't the only counsellor who happens to have a choir as her CCA, okay? And just cos I merely mentioned this girl with such a background bitching about me, you assumed it was you. But I don't really care anymore.

And then my long-lost primary school friend comes adding me on FB. Weirdly enough, despite not being in contact for the last...... 6 years? She knows vaguely what course I am in. My course info isn't available on my FB, by the way. And I do have a slight idea of how she knows. Don't ever let me find out that you're (I don't mean my pri sch friend) talking behind my back ever again. One long saga is enough.

I know its inevitable that people will talk about you. My own friends always tell me not to care. BUT WHY SHOULD I TAKE SHIT FROM PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW?! Why do they only shut up/apologise after I've pointed out all their mistakes in a lengthy blog entry? As much as my friends enjoy reading these "bitchy" entries, IT SAPS A LOT OF MY ENERGY.

Wanna bitch, then do it within four closed walls and make sure nothing gets out. But then again, birds of the same feather flock together... Just like how they adore gossiping, so do their friends. If not how do you think I know all these, huh??? I've my own resources, duh!

Not to mention, I don't have the time for these anymore. Unless something really gets me mad.

I've toned down A LOT, my temper is not what it used to be anymore. So don't take it for granted. Don't get me all riled up before you cower and apologise when I truly flare up. What's the point, then?

I'll be back........ soon!! For now, a lengthyyyyyyyyyy entry for you.

xoxo,
VAL